And so ends my world as I know it today...

[Graedius]

Today is probabaly the worst day of my life.

Why, you ask? Well, for reasonss I will elaborate on in their relevant order:

1) One of my best friends got diagnosed with a serious heart condition.

Yes, my friend Nathan.. he's recently been diagnosed with a heart condition that is very potentially fatal, and could occur at any given time... It's caused by... I forget what it's called... the part of the hearth that receives the electric impulses that makes it pump blood, basically. His issue is, that it sometimes doesn't work correctly, meaning that a part of the heart does not function. It's a very dangerous condition and could result in a fatality at any given time. If anything should happen to him...

See, this is why I hate humanity, and organics in general... we're so weak, one little tiny infintesimal issue goes wrong with you, and that's the end. I'm disgusted with our weakness.


2) I'm being forced to move to a city far away, leaving everything I know and love behind.

I currently reside in Taber, Alberta, Canada... soon, we're going to move to Red Deer, AB, instead. Why? For reaosns to numerous and pointless to name... Point is, I've lived here nearly my whole life... 14 years, roughly. Everything and everyone I know and love resides and lives here... my whole life and who I am was forged in this very modest little community... but now, even before I graduate, something I'e always wanted to do, here in Taber, I'm being whisked away to a place I've always claimed I'd never want to live in... a large city center. It's taken my whole life to forge the great friends I have now, but now I must leave them to go to another place, where I'll be unknown to all who are there... to graduate, nonetheless. I'm a mess of greif and fear over that. I've gotten a little over it, seeing as after grade 12, we'd all likely part our ways anyways... Bless be the internet, because at lest I can't lose you guys, no matter where I go...

3) I ate the most disgusting hamburger I've ever eaten in my life.

You know a McDonald's Big Mac? You know, 2 patties of meat with a peice of bun in the middle? Well, there's a double Big Mac, with 4 patties of meat, 2 on the top and 2 on the bottom of the layer of bread in the middle... well, today, I ate something you had to specifically ask for there because it's too nasty to be listed on their menu... a Double, Double Big Mac... this sucker had 8 Patties of Meat, and at least a cup of grease. God, after talking about heart conditions, I'm disgusted with myself. However, I never had to pay for the $9.00 hamburger... a friend paid for it as long as I'd eat it.






So yeah. My life as I know it today is about to end in a cyclic crashing motion of innate doom.

Why did I make this thread? I'm not sure...
Just to tell you that if I become super-cynical, you'll know why.


.........

[teh yoshi]

Super cynical? Mentioning somebody's life at risk and a disgusting hamburger in the same list seems like a sick joke to me! Look, I'm terribly sorry about your friend and his heart condition, and that he should be within our prayers, but I feel a bit offended how you just slapped on the disgusting hamburger bit just so we can have some laughs at the same time have small pity on you for your terrible feeling after eating it.

I'm also sorry that you must move to some land unbeknownst of you, but like you said, you just got to move on. I know I felt like crap when I had to move from San Diego, CA to the valley. I lost all contact to my friends, sitting alone at the lunch table in school, and returning home only to play games by yourself, sharing the memory with nobody. It takes time to recover and make totally new friends, but I bet with a personally like yours, and your wit, it shouldn't be too much of a challange. Also, you got the Internet. Your old friends, too, no? And compared to my move with the yours, you'd probably be losing your family on top of that. Isn't that what you kind of wanted, anyway? Live alone, and not having to worry about anybody else living with you?

[F-15 Yoshi]

Damn, sorry for the bad news. Is this heart condition cureable in any way? Thats the S###s. Lets just pray that he will pull through without any incedent.


Ugh a double double big mac? That thing must be worng in so many ways. Ugh i get disgusted at the site of seeing double big mac, You must have one hell of a good stomach to be able to eat that.

[Fifth]

Ouch-au... That's harsh...

Well, I doubt that I can say anything that'd be helpful/comforting in any way...

But I think I can share your hatred of big cities (I'm still quite certain that San Francisco wants to kill me.)

[dancingyoshi]

thats bad especially the hamburgur. bit.

[Yoshiken]

i dont know what to say right now....except for the hamburger part everything else sounds just plain....wrong, i have pity for you...i dont know what i can do to help you. i will add you and your friend into my prayers and hopefully this moment of hardship will pass with joyous results

[Koshizu]

Aww, Graedius...*opens her arms for a hug* I demand you hug me! n_n* *hughug*
Eh...I guess my best birthday ever kinda sent all the bad bits over to you. T_T

Eee...so sorry to hear about your friend. We were doing about the heart in science a coupla weeks back...is it something to do with his nerve receptors? Motorary neurons...ack, its all coming back! n_n* Anyways...yes, but if it wasn't for humanity, he wouldn't even be able to go and get diagnosed. Right? Just...try and think positive. If you think negativly, you''ll bore yourself into a pit of depression. And thats not nice. Your friend needs you right now, ne? I bet he wouldn't like to see you being so unhappy around him...plus, I'm sure he'll be fine in the hands of the hospital, and they'll try everything they can to get him better. n_n

I had the same feeling when I lived in Scotland. 7 years...T_T...but still, I'm gonna emigrate back there when I get enough money. Mwahaha...XD But think about it; its an opportunity to make lots of new friends! And widen your horizans...you never know, might find stuff out there that you could *gasp* enjoy. n_n And, whats wrong with city centers? They aren't all that bad. Heck, you don't have to walk or drive endlessly for miles to get a bottle of milk. =]

And the hamburger thing...yeah, well...the gouged out hole in my burger was far from appetising either. XD Don't go and comfort eat when you are sad now...thats very bad. You could put on alot of weight, and we don't want that now, do we? *prods Graedius* n_n

Eh, and in conclusion...yes. I do infact, SUCK EGGS at giving comforting words of advice. Oh cheese. ¬_¬*

[yoshi84]

I've been almost in the same situation as you, Graedius the Red Mage. I had to move to a different state, though I did get to graduate in my home state. However, it was just my mom and I through my two years left of high school. It seemed like forever until my family reunited, but at least I got to graduate with my friends. Right before my junior year of high school one of my good friends was diagnosed with cancer. I became pretty depressed from it (and from our family being temporarily split up). Being a Christian, though, I prayed to God for my friend and family and that he would help me through my depression. At the end of my junior year my friend was cancer-free. During my senior year I realized the move wouldn't be so bad cause my friends would be going off to college, anyway and I was just ready for a change. You shouldn't hate humanity. It is just the way God created us. We were made to be frail and vulnerable beings. We just have to make the best out of life. I'll pray for your friend and you should too. It goes a long way. I prayed just about every night for my friend and she got better. I prayed just about every night for the strength to make it through the time when my family was split up. Both prayers helped. They made a huge difference! Now I don't know what religion or denominaiton you are, but just from experience and seeing this happen, maybe you should open your heart and talk to the Lord.

[Graedius]

I didn't put the Humburger bit in there as a sick joke... it was put in there mainly to show the disgust I had for myself on that day.

*Hugs Koshizu*

I don't know how you'd treat a heart condition like that... I really don't. We were at his house today, and was fine all day, but in the night (11:00-ish) his condition worsened again. I fear for the worst, always...




No, I'm not going all suicidal on you. That's just foolishness.

[Anjil]

I'm so sorry, Graedius. I feel quite a bit of your pain. We had a family friend die of cancer a few years ago and i still haven't fully recovered.

My dad was in the navy and we had to move quite a few times. I've lived in 7 different places my whole life. A couple times, i didn't even live in a place long enough to make new friends. The longest i've lived in one place is 6 years which was in San Diego. I don't have any childhood friends....y'know, the ones that you make friends with when you're about 5 or 6. I moved from San Diego to the inland area, losing contact with all of my friends but one. I'd always have to share old memories with new friends who'd have absolutely no idea what i'd be talking about.

And about that burger, i'd probably have thrown up before i'd have finished half of it! A burger that big is just.... sick. Not appealing at all whatsoever. I would've made my friend keep his money

[Graedius]

That must've sucked a lot...
But I don't know what's worse, moving numerous times, not allowing you to make friends, or living somewhere your whole life where you've made the best of friends and a good reputation, and then leaving before you can graduate, when you're so near...

[Yoshiki]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear this, Graedius. (I have a hug for you too.)

[joshi]

Oh Graedius I don't know what to say. Your friend has met a terrible misfortune. I pray for the best. You know Graedius, these things happen, to the best of us. But we can't nag about our lives to make it all better. We can't search for sympathy when we are troubled. You must be strong. You must have high hopes for your friend's survival. What would your friend think when you are saying you are having it bad when he's on the verge of dying?

Humanity has much more positives than the animal kingdom. As an animal you can't eat cooked food, when you are sick you can't take medicine, there is no such thing as an animal animal doctor, animals are twice as vulnerable to diseases, disorders, and death. You spread rabies to others. You have to hunt your own food (you can't just waltz into a supermarket), and there is many, many things that animals can't do that we humans can. If you think we are vulnerable, then you must think again.

As for the moving part, lucky you. I want to move out of this silent, forsaken neighboorhood. Plus my school is terrible. I hate it, I hate it all! The schools are poor, it's not easy to make friends because some people are jerks and persistent morons. Moving would be the next best thing for me. Ah, the idea of moving to yet another unkown place, where nobody knows your name, and you must start all over again is such a grand adventure. I appreciate challenges, and I've moved 5 times in my life. Yet, we have improved this house so much and used up so much money on it, why would we want to move? I wish I could move somewhere else that's better. Maybe I can find brand new friends and tell them all about my experience. Maybe they can come over to my house all the time! Ooooh, the thought of moving gets me so excited, it makes me want to pack up.

The burger bit just killed the moment of sympathy, you do know that? Yes, those burgers are nasty, but it's nothing new really.

You must learn to appreciate the life you have. A city is not that bad, easier to bump into someone that yells at you excuse me then find out you meet him again at school. Then you both get in trouble by the principal for being late to class then he makes up an excuse that you were helping him around the school and before you know it, you are the best of pals. Life has its negatives and positives Graedius, if you can deal with it, you can live it.

[Graedius]

As an animal you can't eat cooked food

As an animal you do not need or even want cooked food.

when you are sick you can't take medicine

It keeps the population in check. Malthus's theory.

There is no such thing as an animal animal doctor

By definition, a Veteranarian is an animal doctor.

Animals are twice as vulnerable to diseases, disorders, and death.

Diseases and disorders, no. Why? Because, think of it like this: The food they eat is just for it's nutriential value, so there's no waste products in it (I.E. How we drink pop when wer'e thirsty, for example. We get the drink, but a lot of waste material with only a detrimental effect...) Animals aren't like that... they get basically pure nutrient foods. In addition, we are overall weaker to disease and such as they are. The more we create and use antibiotics and antibacterial products, the less out immune systems are exposed to infections and the less efficiently they can fend them off if it is nnessesary to do so. Overall, animals are far more hardy than humans. (Note: I excluded the aspect of vaccinations. Why? Because that's human intelligence interfereing.)

You spread rabies to others. You have to hunt your own food (you can't just waltz into a supermarket), and there is many, many things that animals can't do that we humans can.

First, anyone can speread rabies to others. That's not animal specific.

Second, Yes, that isa true, but there's many things animals can do that humans (on their own without technology) cannot do.

If you think we are vulnerable, then you must think again.

Oh yes. We're just so invulnerable.
One tiny veain breaks and in a day you're dust.
On little diesease and your terminally ill.

there's 100,00,00,00,00,00,0000000000000000 ways for us to die off... we're so weak and sucky.

[Koshizu]

So, the Ebola virus...thats gotta suck, huh? [/random Friends quote]

[joshi]

Maybe you should work on finding ways to not quote too much Graedius. It would save up space, and it isn't necessary to quote sentence by sentence.

[Graedius]

Y'know what, lad?
When I rant, I do need to quote every sentence.

Because oftentimes, if I don't, the person who I"m trying to get to understand what I"m saying likely won't for whatever reasons. There's no point in talking if no one understands what you mean, anyways.

In addition, it puts more emphasis on the point of each rebuttal when each sentence is replied to seperately.

If I rant while rebutting, I'll likely quote sentence by sentence.

I think you needn't worry about space, lad. My posts generally take up little room. So if the occasional one does, don't go through the roof.

[Soul]

d**n... poor Graedius, I wish I could do something for him...

I have a sad life story too...

I consider you have a huge blessing because you were able to live in the same city for all this time. Even if you move, you can move back there when you're old enough, and most of the people that you know will still be there. I do not have that option. When I moved, I was 6 years old. I don't remember anyone from over there; If I went to live again there, it would be horrible because everyone would seem to know me, but I don't (It happens to me all the time when I go to visit my grandparents there). ALL my family lives away from me, except for my mom, dad, and only brother. No uncles, no aunts, no cousins, no grandparents, nothing. Even in this city I have lived in three different homes.

Even if you were or are shy, your cousins would help you introduce you to new people. But I have no cousins here, so I'm doomed to loneliness because I am a shy person. None of my old high-school friends invites me anywhere because I don't drink nor smoke (that's what they do all the time, drink and smoke). When I was little I was sent to a boys-only school, which was TOTAL HELL for me because I was mild-mannered. All my elementary schoolmates were brats and pranksters, so I do not have a single friend from elementary school. My mom always thought it was just me, so she did nothing. She never defended me. And, because I was in a boys-only school, I never got to know any girls either. I'm starting to feel physical pain in my heart as I write this...

About the hamburger, why didn't you just throw it away?

yoshi_84 said:

I prayed to God for my friend and family and that he would help me through my depression.

I'm sorry if this offends any religious people out there, but I do not believe in prayers. I believe prayers have no power to change my future or anyone elses. If they did, then it would be no different from using 'magic words', and there would be absolutely no evil in the world. I strongly believe that whatever bad things happen to me, it's for a reason. I used to pray when I was a kid, but I lost hope.

I am not suicidal, but I welcome death anytime. I do not feel I have a future worth living.

[Mailtroid]

[glow=green,2,300]Yoshi Soul wrote:[/glow]

None of my old high-school friends invites me anywhere because I don't drink nor smoke (that's what they do all the time, drink and smoke).

Welcome to the club...

[Graedius]

Well, as you should know, I want a lone life, so maybe it's for the better...

No one will be here if I come back.. they all have plans to leave once they graduate...