Thanks for the memories...of bullying me

[dragonpawy]

hello YC people, who will probably never read this,
By some strange happenstance, this forum came up in something I was looking at and I was reminded of a lot of things. Some good times, but I mostly just remembered PinkFloydYoshi et al's strange beef with me.

I was 14 effing years old, and some of you here were extremely unfair to me and caused me great stress.

At that time in my life, and pretty much for my entire life up until that point, I was regularly being raped by my father, and my mother was profiting off of me by forcing me into prostitution and child pornography. Yes, I was a mess (BECAUSE I WAS BEING RAPED ALL THE TIME), and I guess no one could have known that because at that time in my life I thought I would take that secret to my grave. I also was highly traumatized, suicidal, and in desperate need of outside influences/support. So thanks for bullying a 14 year old kid. How old was PYF back then, like in his mid twenties? You people that were involved in excluding me should feel ashamed of yourselves. One, I was just a kid, and two, I had horrific PTSD (and still do to some extent.)

Hope you feel good about picking on a mentally ill CSEC teenager.

(Not everyone was total ass to me here, and this isn't about ya'll. Stay cool if you see this. Lol at the idea of people seeing this.)

- Pawy

PS: This is super cathartic.

[PinkFloydYoshi]

I read it, saw your tweet.

This brings back some unpleasant memories for me too, but I owe you a response, and an apology for any and all indiscretions I may have imposed upon you. I put a lot of this past behind me for various reasons of my own. Wasn't all sunshine and rainbows for me either if I'm honest. The internet in those days was home to silver surfers and kids/teens with problems looking for a way out. Certainly true of you going by your post, but I listen to people if they ask my advice and try to offer a solution or a path forward, my own problems are mine alone to deal with. Hid them well didn't I?

I've very much forgotten about what happened here. I was in my early 20s I believe. There's a lot of stuff I regretted even before this post and I did kinda want to reach out to people to find out what people are up to now and at the very least part ways amicably and wish people all the best in life regardless of the kind of relationship we had, good or bad. I made it obvious if we weren't getting along, and I'd be honest and complain as to why. I didn't sugar-coat things. Truth be told I don't know why we didn't get along, or at least I don't remember. Even if I fully knew now why we didn't get along, I'd still be happy to wish you the best in future. I still am happy to do so.

Now I see your post here, I'll admit I feel no different but please don't feel frustrated. What has happened, happened. I do not dwell on the past because I have the future of others to think of. All I can do now is offer to shake your hand and walk away, wishing you all the best now and in the future. I hope your cruel past is far behind you and you are now living a happy life in a job you enjoy with a partner you love. If not, chase it and don't let your shadow hold you back. Don't let the people who once looked at you as an object and not as a human being stop you from becoming whatever you want. Prove to them that you are better. I'm sorry for anything I said or did. You were awesome, and any issues between us were purely my own fault for one reason or another.

- Pink